Then I thought I was in love. For a few weeks, I thought I was in love, and that someone was in love with me, and it was glorious. Then I found out the guy, the one I let myself fall hard and fast for, found out he was getting back together with his pregnant ex girlfriend. He didn't even have the guts to tell me himself......so..yeah, that was a bit of a blow. I need to protect my heart better. I did learn some things...things that are important to me (I mean other than someone who can be fucking honest)...so that is good.
But....
I am still working on carving out what a life as a woman without children looks like. I have been filling my time with friends and laughter. Meeting new people through D and D, and hopefully if the snow stops and the warmth of spring returns, through some local hiking groups. Looking forward to Gulf Wars. Need to allow myself to be open to new possibilities.
I need to find friends who are single. Who don't have kids or husbands or wives to take care of. I am working on this. Don't get me wrong, I cherish my friends who aren't single and who do have friends, but it is nice to talk to people about things other than their children.
So that's where I am..oh and I have done yoga for 59 days straight, and I am feeling good. Excited to see the changes I have worked hard for, excited to see what happens in the next 60 days. Gotta keep it up during Gulf.
So...yeah...that's where I am at today.
